Nonchalent me….the end or the beginning of pangs?
Hmmm…so, there isn’t much i’ve been upto…except that i’ve to read bunch of craps every moment on. I didn’t know university admission coaching can cause such frustration as well. I though, after my HSC exam, there was gonna be an ease in efforts of mine to survive in this competitive world…but no there had to be intrigue from Allah. Indeed the “All merciful” works in his own ways , his humour has subtlety that can sometimes be interpreted as a deceitful (a tauba on this!) occurance. No wonder bard-dudes (bard isn’t a spelling mistake, it means POETS) ”
“Liberty is a different kind of pain from prison”
—– T. S Elliot
But i wonder why ammu always says, “Allah ja kore bhalor jonnoi kore?”(trans: When Allah does his thy bidding, he always compensates the future) . I’m not getting Atheistic over this, because i do belive in a divine, a superior force working tirelessly to maintain the equilibrium of this universe…but what is pissing me of this time? hmm lets see….
so, yeah Allah’s “thy bidding” does cause intrigue in me sometimes. Still when i think of the fact that the victim has herself remained Fidel to the Almighty, i might as well remain so too…and pray (5 times hopefully!, i’m a sinful bastard that believes in the third prime or “3″=how many times i used to pray) that remission becomes permanent, not some temporal salvation.
So, readers…hows life? better than me i guess
hey, i know what you mean, i too cleared my ISC exam this year and had to slog another two months, more than my entire slogging of ISC combined to write those crappy entrance tests. it paid off though. I had one college in mind and i got in. So all i can say is that in the end it will pay off. But you and i know, there is never an end to hard work. Something else always comes up after one task is done.
Comment by Andalite — August 8, 2005 @ 3:10pm
Sorry to hear about your mom! May ‘GOD’ bless her! All the best!
Comment by Rabab — August 8, 2005 @ 8:12pm
“ALLAH ZA KOREN VALOR ZONNOI KOREN” - Keep faith in these words.
Comment by Llanin — August 10, 2005 @ 1:07pm
May Allah bless your mom … my mom had this rare disease just before my HSC too and so I am trying to wonder if it is just as difficult for you as it was for me … in fact my mom’s being blind changed my whole life, I have been so distracted from the “long-cherished” track of my life … thanks to Allah that now she can see some light at least with one of her eyes
so … wht r u upto? where do u want to get in?
Comment by Rikhi — August 11, 2005 @ 9:37pm
hmmm..faith…bad-luck…getting cynical about others…life isn’t like the gray-scale after all….infact its a fully fledget RGB panaeroma.
Comment by Administrator — August 11, 2005 @ 11:34pm
hmmm…I like to think of it this way…since Allah ja koren bhalor jonnoi koren, chances are those of us who are gettin it real sucky in this life, will probably get His eternal rewards. On the other hand, those of us who are simply breezing through this life with not a single hindrance getting in the way, will probably not get it that good in the eternal one. So yeah…patience is probably the key…and if you treat it all as a ‘test’…the most important test of all is to bare with Allah, and dont lose faith no matter what! Cos after all…your Mom maybe sick now…or you maybe having a hard time getting into university today…but time here is probably minutely limited and insignificant compared to the eternal life!And thats probably what we should be concerned about! (Im saying all this assuming u do belive in the eternal life…dont u?;) … hope things get better for your Mom:)
Comment by Sameen — August 12, 2005 @ 1:05am
man, i see you are in a lot of mess… sorry to hear about aunty… hope she gets well soon.
and have faith man! things will turn out better sooner than it seems.
well, at least i try to think that way!
Comment by sam — August 12, 2005 @ 4:58pm